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I don't know what to call this one

but

I am feeling some type of way

and

needing to get it down on some sort

of paper form

otherwise

I will burst into flames

and

I am kind of tired of bursting

I just want to

be able

to know what the hell 

my feelings

mean

this

.....

emotional

mental

challenge of mine

this

.....

chemical inbalance

makes me so uneasy sometimes even though it is a part of me

I am not ashamed

I embrace it

but

I can't seem to stop these things from happening

inside of me

some days are better

than

others

but it never goes away 

and

that unfortunate known fact

bothers

the hell out of me

and

the controlled substances

are either

....way too expensive

or

.....just don't work for me anymore

and

I am okay with not being normal

I am okay with being incredibly flawed

I am okay

.....but I am not

at the same damn time

and

that's what scares me the most