the open mouths with the crimson lips
and the strawberry smiles
and the saliva so warm and red
it will not rest till both of us
lay alone so cold in bed
not a one of us will be so glad
to be apart but the truth is told
and the truth hurts so much more to tell
than the lie ever did
but i cant live any longer with the truth untold
so one of us must pay the price of the truth or lie
if i tell the truth so hard
i know you'll hate me so
but if i live the lie ive told
i'll hate myself so much more
and then ill lay myself down and draw
upon my skin the open mouths
with the crimson lips
and the strawberry smiles
and the saliva so warm and red
and you will hate me even more
than if i told you the truth of the lie
so in this time one heart will die
i cannot love you, and my heart cant die
for its too late for a dead thing to die again
and in these marks of mouths wide open
i tell you the truth of my own lie
i cannot will not love a soul
for my heart is not alive
the more you hold it the more you beleive
that it is alive but i watched it die
i killed it myself long ago
without knowing it i doomed it to fade
but i do not love you
i cannot speak the hollow words once more
my heart is a festering sore
for which there is no way to heal
so leave me without so much as a thought
tell me how much of a user and abuser i am
but i hope you realize that this is for you
because i cannot, will not tell
if you dont know then ill live the lie