Z as in NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS POEM

Where's a place to call home?

Somewhere I do not feel so alone

And the memory fades

So does the day

Just throw me away

I can no longer stay

You don't hate but what can I say?

How about that I hate the way

The way you pretend it's OK

But it's not and you are no longer happy

You are no longer anyone I want to know

So just let me go

I'll get away in a slow-motion drive by

Next to your house

I'll park it all night

Just to make you sad

I might even make you cry

So when I am gone in the morning

You will know it is the last time you will ever see me around

I'm getting out of this town

All of the memories I made

Every single one slow starts to fade

And I let them die

Along with the "Who am I?"

The one that constantly followed me for years and days



Now I know who I am

I am someone who you can talk to and maybe still call your friend

I am personable

I can make happiness seem so right

When all that I do is kill myself with this constant inner fight

I will bleed it someday

All of the wounds are left unhealed

No scars can even start to form

I'll jsut put on my mask for these last 4 days

As I fade away

I'll take my diploma and get the fuck out of this place



Call me an asshole

I don't really care

I've wanted to leave for so long that I will pose as long as you stare

I'll flip up a hand signal that will made the crown gasp

Make them all fall back and try to bring back some air

Into this heart attack

Right where you left me

Feeling so worthless, but I will no longer cry

For the day that I am gone

Is the day I'll be truly happy

I will be perfectly fine

Working the line, spending my nights all alone

Don't think that I'll need to call you

Cause I won't and I'll be honest that I don't really want to anymore

Just get me out of this house

Out of this stress from every day

And everything you still try to say

Author's Notes/Comments: 

My only comment is that people are stupid...and yes, I can be stupid sometimes too...but I am sick of pretending that I don't want to leave so people don't cry...cuz I want to leave...and I don't care if you cry anymore!

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