I'd Kill to Die...I've Killed to Die

Stare straight ahead

Thats what I do

When the world moves so fast

What else will I do?

I'd kill for the switch

To turn out the light

I've killed already once

Yet I still save another's life



God, why must it be this way?

With all the cold ears turning the other way

You told me that you saved me

So what did I do?

I never did diserve this

And neither did you

Why take it out one the helpless little ones?

Why kill another friend just to make it all undone?



I'd hate to have to admit it

But I know it's my fault

And if walking away another mile helps

Don't give up, don't even think to stop

I'll walk the other way, once I get the guts

For now I sit here staring, never knowing enough

Tears fall every second they come from these eyes

I hate living life in fear behind all of my lies



Kill me now, please, I said it...

I just want to die

To make you a better person,

Let me fall from the sky

It wasn't worth the consequences

SO just let me rot away



I didn't mean to do it, no

But I never knew enough

I never meant to hurt it, no

But who said this life is never though?

I couldn't help but stop it, no

Stopping is never enough

I really really hate it

I really really hate it

I'll take away your pain



Let me fly away

To a worse time and place

Just let me fade away

I no longer want to stay

I knew it yesterday

Back three months ago

The second I saw the face

I knew this was leading to a lack of arm's embrace



And now I'm done

Moving gone

Gone far far away

Don't let me be the one to say goodbye

I deserve nothing else but just to

Lay here and die

And fade away

I'm moving...gone

Now I'm gone

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is what happens when you fuck up so bad...this is what it feels like...this is how it happened.

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Danielle Wagner's picture

Joel!!This one's scary!! It's well written...but scary!