Mind was like a jungle of love
hatred and sadness
of being abandoned
and surrounded.
Happy thoughts still jumbled in my head
But deep inside something broke
I wished I had enough courage
To go straight to your face
To criticize you why you left me alone
When I need you the most and begged you to come.
But no
I am a cowardice in heart
and despite everywall I have put up
between you and me
despite the cold, collected facade I put
I still fear to hear the answer.
I fear to know that
i have never been important to you
I fear that answer
So I don't ask.
We act like nothing different
and go on
with a deep crack between.