i know i can bring you what you need
its just that there are things that you can't see
things i want to throw away
and those words i repeat to myself almost every day.
i know that we could make this last
with out all the shit brung up from our past
but as you see me walking by
i can see that smile from the corner of my eye.
but these things and words i want to burn
hold on to me throughout all the turns.
and ill give u all of me one last time
as though you were always meant to be mine
and as i watch you lay your head down and cry
i cant stop thinking of you and i.
i painted this perfect picture
up in my mind
now all to do
is try to pass this time.
and i thought i knew everything
about me and you
but as the truth comes into play
there was never anything i really knew.
people living their lives
and acting so free
yet when they tell you they are better than you
all you can do is agree.
and when you call
it makes me wish for many more calls to follow
and when you kiss me
it makes my heart feel tired and hollow.
i wanted to be everything you need
and then these feelings went all too deeply
theres no way in this world
i could show you the effect you have over me.
and the letters you would write
bother me so much to this day
that when i read over all of them
they only whisper the sweet things you'd say.
id try and understand you
or at least the things you say
my lips already know too much
and my hands woudnt dare to tell.
to tell the secrets my soul keeps
and the feelings my heart shall weep.
so please dont touch me
the way that you do
it will make my core tremble
and leave me wanting more of you.
Dear J, Thank you for sharing..
it is the oldest and deepest pain in the world
it seems