Endless Mistakes

im stupid to believe you actually care,

while you sit before that judge and lie.

All I can give to you is one cold stare,

I hope you feel the hate in my eyes.



Pretty soon I may not have a home...

all I will have will be this broken heart.

I'm huddled in a corner so alone,

while my father falls apart.



I could look for answers in the sky....

I could ask God what I've done wrong.

But i know i'm just a waste of his time.

I haven't talked to him in so long.



I left my mother because of pain...

only to walk into pure agony itself.

People fucking drive me insane.

I can't even tolerate myself.



I remember once my dad was locked away.

She told me he wanted to die.

He should've wanted to stay....

Hes all I have left in my life.



Everything is caving in on me.

I'm getting so cold it's unreal.

In love is something I no longer wish to be

Somehow I cant quite seem to feel.



I had hope that we would be together again.

When he smiled at me, I knew I was right.

My bro fucked that up, so now we aren't even friends.

If anything, all we do is fight.



I'm still numb to blue eye's charms...

but why was I so jealous when I found out about her?

I hold his memory in my heart, away from harm...

yet sometimes i feel it stir.



I hate myself, plain as day...

for that mistake that i keep repeating.

I try to be smart but my heart gets in the way....

having someone love me is all im needing.




Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is to the woman, that took everything from me.

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Zach Schmid's picture

wow dude..i rarely come across a poem of this calibur.
i'm left speechless here! it kindof reminds me of some of my poems (in a good way)

Zach