im stupid to believe you actually care,
while you sit before that judge and lie.
All I can give to you is one cold stare,
I hope you feel the hate in my eyes.
Pretty soon I may not have a home...
all I will have will be this broken heart.
I'm huddled in a corner so alone,
while my father falls apart.
I could look for answers in the sky....
I could ask God what I've done wrong.
But i know i'm just a waste of his time.
I haven't talked to him in so long.
I left my mother because of pain...
only to walk into pure agony itself.
People fucking drive me insane.
I can't even tolerate myself.
I remember once my dad was locked away.
She told me he wanted to die.
He should've wanted to stay....
Hes all I have left in my life.
Everything is caving in on me.
I'm getting so cold it's unreal.
In love is something I no longer wish to be
Somehow I cant quite seem to feel.
I had hope that we would be together again.
When he smiled at me, I knew I was right.
My bro fucked that up, so now we aren't even friends.
If anything, all we do is fight.
I'm still numb to blue eye's charms...
but why was I so jealous when I found out about her?
I hold his memory in my heart, away from harm...
yet sometimes i feel it stir.
I hate myself, plain as day...
for that mistake that i keep repeating.
I try to be smart but my heart gets in the way....
having someone love me is all im needing.
wow dude..i rarely come across a poem of this calibur.
i'm left speechless here! it kindof reminds me of some of my poems (in a good way)
Zach