Unbreakable Paper Soldier


Why is that I'm much too nice?
Why must other always benefit
from what only I am able to sacrifice?
Can anyone tell me why I do it?

Why is that I'm too strong
to feel the hurt that I should?
I feel as if I just don't belong
Why I am so misunderstood?

I'm a hero to those who don't care
A hero to those who are ungrateful
Those who are unaware of how this is unfair
How can they all be so hateful?

Why is that when others fall
while asking to be saved,
that I will always stand tall
unable to NOT be brave?

They look up to who I am today
and try to follow in my footsteps
I never wished it to be this way
If only they knew the secrets I kept

I ACTUALLY WANT to break down
I want for my emotions to leak
Let me collapse to the ground
Let me for once feel weak

Let me feel as if I have no power
Let me feel there is nothing to live for
Let me cry to you for an hour
Let me think I can't take anymore

Let me know that I too can feel pain
I need to know that it is something real
I know you may think I'm insane,
but I need this in order for me to heal

When will I have too much to take?
What will I have to go through?
What is it that will cause me to break?
Maybe the answer... is you.

                                    - October 10 / 2004

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is how I see myself in my life. Read it again and try to take everything in to understand who I am more.

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KT Kyleen's picture

G'lord! I absolutely adore this poem. It reminds me much of what a bud of mine told me, so I can definitely make a connection.

Wow. I can't express that word enough. Wow.

Favorite part:
I ACTUALLY WANT to break down
I want for my emotions to leak
Let me collapse to the ground
Let me for once feel weak

It's the breaking point of the poem--the part where truth is heard. It's the best and creates a well adjusted impact.

Thanks so much for sharing!

fighter4life's picture

This poem is so awesome!!!!!! It is one of the best poems I have ever read! Great job!

Sasha Carter's picture

DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Talk about hittin ya in the heart. Whew! I had to read that again is was so good. I especially liked the ending b/c through the whole thing it seemed that there was no reprieve but that shocker ending sealed it. Great job.