I keep telling myself, “I can do these.”
Everyday, I convince myself.
Everyday I live.
Everyday I survive.
Yet just a brief moment of silence at night
On the bed, before my thoughts drift away on its own-
I breakdown.
Another morning comes,
Brings another hope
That every ‘today’ would be different.
“I can do these”, I convince myself.
I try, I live. I survive.
The cheers of the day echo at the nameless walls.
And I breakdown.
What’s worse than breaking down
Is breaking down alone.
Everyone is a million miles away.
I retreat, I surrender.
Let go of the battle.
And I stand once more, stronger.
Still trying. Still living. Still surviving.
Sometimes, I get tired
Of working for the ‘better world and me’.
But whatever happened to the world of ‘we’?