The Making of a Woman in a Silly Red Sheet

Lost, sorrowful, fearful and numb faces so young,

All gathered around me, colors so intense.

These formed a ball of light so solid and gleaming,

Aimed on me and I was struck!



An overflowing strength ran through my veins.

Is this hope shining in on me?

If this is, though I am scared, I want it for good.

And touch your face and dry those tears.



I am weak and lost.

Then I looked in your weary eyes…

In your weakness I found strength.

In your innocence I found direction.



I can feel your pain radiating from within.

I want to stop it, choke it, break the chain.

Free you from your past and heal your broken wing.

So you can go back to where your home is.



I don’t know why I care so much, I just do.

Maybe in a way, I see myself in you.

A child with a dream and I made it through,

Maybe I just want you to feel like the way I do.



I may not know how it is to be like you…

Take my hand- the world will pay its due.

I wish that you would know how it is to be like me.

It’s your right, and my responsibility.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

May 18, 2004-
"Looking at the girls as they all gather by the window and wave at their two friends as they walk away with the social worker breaks my heart. It made me remember a scene on the movie “Girl, Interrupted” where the girls would always stare at the window together and wish they could be somewhere out there, yet the crazy world outside scares the shit out of them and therefore build their own secure world at the center. Of course the girls here are still so much different in a way, but they are still victims of this vampire world. I would never know how it is to be like them. Some of them lived in different temporary shelters all their lives, some were able to go back to their families, some newly admitted girls have uncertain future waiting for them. I just can’t help but ask myself what each of them was thinking. I wish I could reach in and touch their heart." (excerpt form my Xanga journal- Jelrin:Beyond Borders) ~© jerlin

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