At A Private Service Of Prayer And Repentance

Christé, eléison :I can no longer condemn these;
Christé, eléison :no more the rush to judgment;
Christé, eléison :despite those called beacons of the church
     (such as they are);
Christé, eléison :despite those haughty, old holiness women
     (who call for spiritual feathers and tar
     who never called love their own).
Christé, eléison :I can no longer question these;
Christé, eléison :for whom am I to question what love is;
Christé, eléison :at fifty years old and not at fifteen,
Christé, eléison :I know no less what love is than at fifteen
     (when I was called "Fairy Jerry,"---awkward adolescent---
     and not a poet).
Christé, eléison :I know no less what love is, and know no more
     except that Love never afraid to speak its name,
     in Whom is my secured Salvation
     (and, there, is, now, no condemnation
     (and no shame);
     Whom I, however unworthily, am privileged to adore.

The Gospel of the Holy Apostle Saint John:

"'FOR THE FATHER JUDGETH NO MAN, BUT HATH COMMITTED ALL JUDGMENT UNTO "'THE SON:  THAT ALL MEN SHOULD HONOR THE
SON . . . .'" [John 5:22-23]

The Gospel of the Holy Evangelist Saint Luke:

"'JUDGE NOT, AND YE SHALL NOT BE JUDGED;  CONDEMN NOT, AND YET SHALL "'NOT BE CONDEMNED;  FORGIVE, AND YE SHALL BE FORGIVEN:  GIVE, AND IT"'SHALL BE GIVEN UNTO YOU . . . .'" [Luke 6:37-38]

Christé, eléison : I cannot judge these now; now not at all
Christé, eléison : with so much left to judge within myself.
 
Starward
 
[jlc]

Author's Notes/Comments: 

[Working on the format of this poem took more time than composing it; such, alas, is my lack of typographical skill on the computer.]

[I except, from this perspective, those who practice what another poet has called "the despised lifestyle."]

The allusion tp "love that dare not speak its name", which is implied (by oppositional contrast) in the ninth petition, is taken from 'Lord' Alfred Douglas' poem, "The Two Loves."

In high school, I was often accused according to the appellation cited above, although my great attraction
(despite a rather simian exterior) to every shoeless girl I saw was also well known and well observed.

I can no longer judge, condemn, or speak against the lifestyle choices that the poem describes; although the fundamentalist leadership of my denomination approve this.  I believe that the two Scriptures cited above, as well as many others too numerous to cite here, allow for my choice not to participate in the lifestyle, but require my silence in judgment of that lifestyle---for all judgment has been committed to Christ by His Father and is, therefore, His exclusive jurisdiction into which a Christian may not trespass.

I believe this position is more classically Christian (with respect to the Early Church) than some of my fellow parishioners would approve; but the prayer cited above, "Christ, have mercy" is not addressed to the Church, or to local churches, or to their parishioners, but to Christ Himself.  Amen.

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