i sometimes just sit out
and stare at nothingness
but i do at the moon when
its there.
i sit there and watch the sky
pitch black sometimes purplish red
and look for the brightest star
thats nowhere
im right here and yet im not
god i have drifted again
where was i anyway
hell i dunno im not sure
but it sure was lonely and cold
there where i went
got a six stringer
strum a little tune that
always comes out sad and unholy
well i should admit that
there is love in that song
i didnt intend it that way though
but there is and it was beautiful
it made me shed when i sang it
thoughts come then they go
about you about me about them
and sometimes about peace here
and how much i made one heck of a mess
whats wrong with me anyway
is it that one little thing that you did
is it me trying to get out of here
is it me wanting to turn back the years
that i thought was wasted
exploited and abused like a new trend
alright then no answers
so ill just sit here and waste
my time like i always do
ill sit here but i need to compel
myself not to think about suicide
say how about you coming over
i think i need a little warm embrace
i sure could use one
i guess i need someone to remind me
that im still alive
i need you to tell me that
im not worth the abuse that im doing
to myself
i need you to tell me that
you are here and i dont need
nobody else.