I feel so distant.
So dead.
But like
I’ve always
Been this way.
I feel a pain,
So deep
And yearning,
Though it’s like,
I don’t care
Woken up,
The damned storm,
Feeling so alone,
So weird.
Like I’m not
Even here.
Need shelter,
Though my
Feelings can
Still deceive
Me.
Need protection,
Though my
Hurt can
Still seethe
Me.
Nothing I
Can do,
But cry away,
So far away,
And hope
I never have
To see them again
I never knew,
How afraid
They made me
How they
Got me
This way.
I never knew,
Why I ever
Tensed up,
Inside when
They’re around
Me.
Didn’t understand,
How I could
Get this way,
Why...
Please tell me,
Why...
Why do I get
This way?
I don’t know
Anymore,
What’s real
Or not.
I just shy away,
Shy away,
Until I’m almost gone.
Please don’t
Let the heated
World,
Eat me whole
With anger
I’m frightened,
Though why,
Why didn’t I
Notice it
Before?
Why didn’t
I know?