Reflex Reaction

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3. Nameless Enigma

Here I go again

  I hope it’s not the same

    Can’t stand to lose again

      I hate playing love’s game

        Always happening too fast

           Jumping right into everything

         Ending with a broken heart

       Is that what this will bring?

     Believing in love is hard

   When it never seems to last      

My parents have me scared

    But that’s all in the past

      This time I’ll take it slow

        Be careful so I won’t get lost

          Watch out so my heart won’t break

            How much does love really cost?

           I want to do this right

        And for once not run away

      But the moment love is mentioned

    I’m already quickly on my way

      Why can’t I believe it?

          What makes it hard to trust?

               If he tells me that he cares

                 I blow it off as lust

               Why do I always run

              It’s my automatic defense

            I run from those who care

          And it doesn’t make any sense

       Should I give a warning

          That I most likely will flee

              When things get too good

                  My auto defense protects me

                    Will he bother to fight

                  Or will he let me go?

               If I never stay to find out

            How will I ever know?                

         I am shying away from him

           And he may be the one

              When I can control my reaction

                   He may already be gone.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Well, I seem to have this habit of running away from good things. I may be afraid that i will get hurt, or that I will hurt him, or it may be that I am just afraid of what will happen. Sometimes my reaction scares me. I think I am mostly afraid that I will find out it isn't real or true. Anyone have any advice?

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James Daniel Darr's picture

Love can be a very scary thing to anyone. Fallowing ones heart is one way to go. But one must also fallow thier instincts about life and love.
darr

Matthew Iseminger's picture

Why take the chance that he may let you go? If you care about where this might go then, don't run. If he has faught someone before that he caes about and lost, why would he fight again? Take a chance. Life is about chances. You just might like what you find.

"...'tis better to have loved and lost than to never loved at all."