Despite how high these tidal flames can leap,
the light over this seething lake still seems
a shadow of itself and rather dim;
unlike this unspeakable agony
in which I sear, and roast, and baste and broil
worse than the pain of an infected boil
increased ten thousand fold upon my skin:
no opportunity to rest or sleep;
no brief escape in, say, erotic dreams.
This depth into which I have been unfairly slammed
is populated by all the God-damned.
I would not have thought that this could have been:
I have always been a firm atheist---
which made me a first ranking communist.
Yurovsky must be here. I long to speak to him
if only for a moment's respite from
these ghastly pains that multiply in sum
wildly, not being bound by time or space
(for such do not apply in this dread place).
This lake, Lake fire, stifles all cries to silence
while on our living bodies wreaking violence
like torches of a blazing torture ceaselessly
applied. We ever burn, but not to ashes;
and every second brings millions of lashes,
of leaping, biting, tearing, scorching flames
on us---to haughty to admit our shames.
I know I am not, but I feel, alone
without the least of humane company;
always sinking further, like some millstone.
All sounds are muffled---suffocated---
as I am even further innundated.
I know I shall not hear Yurovsky's screams;
I guess I only have ears for my own.
Starward