What am I to you?
Am I just someone you can turn to
When there's no more place to run?
Am I here to just be "your girl"
Or am I some prize
Or something you can keep in your pocket?
What am I to you?
Am I really that "important?"
Or are you just saying that?
Am I just here to listen to you
To wait till you feel like remembering me
To just hide all my emotions?
What am I to you?
Someone who just says "yes honey, it's alright"
Bottling up all my thoughts to myself?
Why did you want to be with me?
So you could be "in"
So you could be "cool coz you have a girl?"
If I cry...
Why do you listen?
And once those tears dry... you forget...
When I'm in pain
Do I get comfort?
Or is it my job to do that?
When I'm sad...
Shall I hide it?
And get stuck with poetry?
What am I to you?
Some toy for you entertainment?
Some item you possess?
Am I just the girl
Who sees you in sorrow
When will I be #1 on your list?
Am I just the "alternative thing to do"
Whenever you get tired
Of playing video games and skateboarding?
What am I to you?
Someone screaming for your attention?
Someone begging for you to be with me?
Am I just an "obligation"
That you need to do
Even if you don't mean it?
What am I to you?
Am I a rock
Whose supposed to be so hard and cold to complain?
I wish I was your skateboard
So you could take me
Wherever you go...
I wish I was a baseball
So you could hit me
And be so eager to catch me...
I wish I was your favorite video game
So you wont get tired of being with me
Over and over again
I wish I was your favorite skating video
So you could just watch me all night
Every night...
I wish I were "your friends"
So you could listen to me
So you would definitely want to be with me
What am I to you?
Some creature without feelings?
Some mystical being that can't get hurt?
Am I some goddess?
Some spirit
That's too dead to even feel pain?
What am I to you?
A hobby?
A past time?
Am I to forever put up to you?
To forever bear with you?
To forgive you everytime?
Ofcourse!
Why?
Coz I love you
Why did I choose you?
Because I thought you were different
You were...
Too different
To even get used to the fact
That I'm here in your life now
Why did you want me?
Why were you so sweet?
To then trash all I've known of you...
I wish I was someone, some average girl
Who you can actually appreciate
For all the simple things I do for you...
I wish you were like your friends
Who actually consider me a part of you
Who actually want to hang with me
I wish I wasnt so weak
So dependent on you
That my life itself is ruled by you
Without you I'm nothing
You're the only thing I live for
So why ruin my life?
Why throw away the sweetness?
Why forget the eagerness you had before?
Why forget me?
Forget me..
Forget me not
Oh! Whatever!
Whatever?
Oh how I hate that word
A word only used to shut people up...
So why use it on you?
Why use it on me?
Why say it to anyone?!
I'm insane
Insane for loving you too much
Too much that I can't even think anymore
Too many emotions swirling in my head
Love, compassion
Anger... sorrow...
When will I mean something to you?
When I die, get sick?
When it's too late?
When will I be appreciated?
When I'm no longer here?
When I cant talk anymore?
I wish I wasnt such a complainer
Such a stupid freak
Too indulged in you...
But...
What will you say if I ask you this:
What am I to you?
Maybe I only write when I'm sad?
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