if at all there was a time to die
i wish it could be soon
so id feel like this no longer
or stare in longing at the moon
to become something i can never be
is all i want in this place
to be like selene, smart and strong
and to have a perfect race
to wake and hunt
to live and fight
to protect those i have to
and to only leave at night
to an early grave
is where i want to be
but nobodys listening
or there to try and stop me
so as i lay in bed
i pray for God to take my soul
and save me from this life
cause im lost scared and cold
this lack of everything
this abundance of hate
only pulls me closer
to the trigger my true fate
when im gone no one will care
"oh well hes gone smoke anouther 'J'"
fuck this world please save me know
cause i might not be here the next day
but thats not why i wanna die
a part but not the whole reason
i'm tired of beind hurt and cast away
im sick of all this treason
stop me from desicrating my soul
show me you love me .... please
i need a loving person to
take the gun and get me off my knees
so find me while you can
cause my fingers only getting closer now
but if you do, think to yourself
have you a reason how
if you promise to love me true
then i'll put the gun away
and ill do what i can to thank you
for giving me a reason to stay