I was young, like a broke colt
Holding onto my last hope
Making love to my uncles
In parking lots
I was trapped in a car seat
Tied down to the backseat
Call your gamble, call it badly
I was lost
I was young, a worker
Holding conference in street corners
Never once thought I was broken
Or something else
But the drugs were wild
I guess through the bile
I found something worthwhile
or something else
Holding onto the mast as the storms rage on
cursing the winds that won't take me home
Cursing any god, cursing everyone
Just trying not to be lost
I felt sorry for myself
And I put my sorrow on the top shelf
Self-pity and self-doubt, well
I had it all...
I was angry with the pastor's
For helping those rat-bastards
Take advantage of my soul
Take advantage of me
But still I dream of rest,
on the shore of the blest
Where my wife still waits for me
And through this ocean fog
And the storm raging on
I can sense the shore will soon come to me
Soon the shore will come unto me
Holding onto the mast as the storms rage on
cursing the winds that won't take me home
Cursing any god, cursing everyone
Just trying not to be lost
Just trying
I like the way the lines
I like the way the lines built up the sense of despair, betrayal, and emotional injury until the crescendo in that final, brief, staccato line. Bravo!
Starward
thank you very much
It is meant to be a song, so perhaps I will sing it and post a link with the poem. I have a fair enough singing voice, of course.