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Looking Up
I wish I was lovable.
That would be incredible.
I feel barely alive.
I wasn't lying when I said I need your friendship.
I wish I didn't need what I need.
Without my needs, I struggle to live, making up reasons to continue.
I wish I was a person.
Then things wouldn't worsen.
I would be thought of and missed.
I would be held and kissed.
Now I am too old, too mean, too ugly.
Wanna do something with me?
I know the answer, but I like to ask anyway.
I'll just go through this "life" alone another day...
Forming a deeper relationship
Forming a deeper relationship with your own heart and letting your own light shine in and out will help. You are a beautiful being. You know that. Calm the raging waters that suck you into negativity and lonliness. Try not to make others feel like you NEED so much. Neediness pushes people away. Just live and love like you do. You know you have it in you. Don't seek the return of your affections. Giving love without expectation allows for a greater exchange of that for which you seek. Allow yourself to heal from within. I am sorry that you hurt so deeply. Peace, love and light <3
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Thank you!
I did apologize for the neediness, in the "poem", in my defense, for needing "friendship", I understand that pushes people away. I will continue to not expect friendship and be an available friend and try to choose what it is I need, I guess? But, thank you for saying those nice things!
--- Chief Icanpiccem
We ALL need friendship. But
We ALL need friendship. But that's not what I'm talking about... neediness is different. You just have to find the people you connect with the best. You should keep writing. You're good. Plus, pouring out the emotion onto the page can be quite healing. I love you... if but from a distance, my friend. Hope so your world brightens up soon!
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sorry
My "neediness" is probably a problem with me, but right now I was thinking of other things for awhile. I was just writing some stuff to blow off steam. You love me? I think the term "if but" is funny. Thanks for the smile. I am your friend. My light might be fading, I don't know. It seems to be all I have left.
--- Chief Icanpiccem
Glad you got a chuckle. I
Glad you got a chuckle. I blow off steam pin writing too. Keep it up. :) Remove the veil that's dulling your light.
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ok
is there anything you need?
--- Chief Icanpiccem
Me? Uhm... $10,000,000
Me? Uhm... $10,000,000 dollars. lol. Nah, life is good. A little less physical pain would be nice. Other than that, life is full and enjoyable for the most part. Thanks for asking.
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I mean...
from me as a friend? do you need anything from me?
--- Chief Icanpiccem
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ok
not sure what you think I need to forgive you about, but I'm pretty sure I already did it! I'm not stopping you from living or loving in any way you want to. Feel free. But, keep in mind, I might respond to responses on my poems. Otherwise, I am unaware of any communication between us. PM me if you want and talk to me about it.
--- Chief Icanpiccem
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oh yeah sorry
you are right, on April 7th, messaged each other on fb... And, I don't know what you are thanking me for now, so if you would like to talk to me, please leave a private message
--- Chief Icanpiccem