i feel like i should be thinking one way, but i'm not
i look, then look away, because i know i'm the only one picking up on things, and thinking the way i do
i think things that no one else thinks
it seems like everyone else doesn't worry about the things that i worry about
i tell myself to forget about the things that hold me back, that push me away, that make me sad, that make me mad
but i can't
it's like
there is always something that gets me
even so little as to be a nothing to someone else
it's always there