I'm the same, playing the game, involving my heart and not my head, knowing the outcome, wanting to become, one of those eHarmony people.
All happy and chipper, completing each others statements, the giggles, pokes, and tickles....holding hands, my goodness its sickening, because I know that will never be me.
Sadly, for once I see the truth and the oncoming train, but I'm stuck to the track, with him I relax aand sleep well at night......this can't be right .......and I'm scared, feelings bared as they are worn on my sleeve.
Wanting to believe, for without that we already have nothing, looking for something and promises of everything.
So that's why I'm the same, older, but playing the game, of involving my heart before my head.