I have been down this road before,
Just on the receiving end.
How could I do this to my family,
My wife and best friend?
I feel there was a big hole a
big empty void in my life.
Tho I have it all: nice house,
Car, Job, and wonderful wife.
I am trapped by the chains
of wanting more,
What more? I don’t know what it is
So I continue to whore.
I love my wife and kids,
What made me do what I did?
I ask myself, “Is there anything more?”
“What am I doing this for?”
I know this behavior will cost me all,
But like lemmings drawn to the sea
I am running towards that fall.
Oh woe, woe is me!
God, I have no one to turn to,
I have disappointed my family,
My wife is confused and aloof,
All I have is you.
Please God, help me make this right.
I can’t do it alone, try as I might.
I will never, ever do this again,
I know all too well about the pain.
Her forgiveness, now I will seek,
This a lesson no need to ponder.
Never again will I be weak,
I am home where I should be
Never again to wander.