Angel with low self esteem

You did some things you did,
that hurt me so bad
But now you’re not here and I cannot feel
...I guess I’m feeling sad
We floated around and you turned and asked
Why I knocked you down?
But your cruelty is...
oblivious,
unseen by your selective eyes
I thought I was down, but then you showed me down-
Now i wish I could feel down
The barricades I built just because of you...
are walls preventing light
I wait all night for some breakthrough,
but I guess the time’s not right
I tell you that I did love you inspite of you
...and that I loved you still
I also said that I'd understand-
If you say that you want just friends
You ask me what it is that I want from you
I say I’m just happy to have you here

You ask me why I fought with you-
I’m just so happy that you’re here
I tell you sometimes that I’m angered by you,
...until I see the pain in your eyes
I know I’d agreed that I would carry you-
but even Atlas couldn’t bear your lies
You asked me why it never worked for us-
and I look at you with miserable eyes
I tell you that because of the games you play
Chipping away at my forever fragile trust
I ask you to remember that time we spent-
I was so happy in that time
But you were the flowing tide that brought me grace-
and then you ebbed and mercilessly took it all away
A beautiful songbird that floated by-
landing upon my window pane
You sang me a tune that slowed the pace of my heart,
yet filled me with such celestial pain
But when I went to hold you, you flew away
I guess that I tried to pin you down
When you wanted to be free
Sweet angelic avian
You couldn’t comprehend
The beauty I see in you
It's like I'd dreamed you there my elven princess
Yet I couldn't keep you there
Why couldn’t I  understand?
I should have been grateful that you flew by
Yet I cry
Although at that time you’d seen the real me-
you were enchanted and so was I
After that time
I couldn’t be myself around you
But now it’s past and
I feel dead
I’m just happy that you're here

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To live in the same time zone, historically, knowing we see the same stars and share the same air - like that - melancholy but reality felt - Enjoyed the plaint - slc