Theres tiny little words on the tip of my tongue
When I want to say I feel your pain
But what I'm feeling is because of me
Because of you
Because of the world.
Here I am, I don't want to point the blame
I don't want to curse the world I'm confused to be
Me, I am tired and I'm a burden
I feel this way because of me
Because of you
Because of the world
I wish I could hold your hand tell you alright
Don't know if I can
Don't know if the world understands
I whisper because my voice has gone
It trickles like dust, glitters in gold
Sweeps in the morning sunshine
I think how lucky it is to be me
To have the warm amber glow
Like the setting of the sun
To walk and look alone in a window pane
To have a bed of flowers and possesions
in my outstretched aging hand
I shouldn't be complaining
But I'm complaing for me
Im complaining for you
I'm feeling sorry for the world
Its a powder blue and wonder where it goes
Those nights, and those tears
When I feel inadequate, when I feel scared
I can't sleep, I twist I turn
You can't imagine, you could not see
Its black and I know when it comes
It hits me like a ton of bricks
Burying me alive I'm trying suicide
Scared of myself and what I can do
Terrified of me
Terrified of you
Hide from the world, in my room
Restricted to a classroom, the circulum makes no sense
Spin with the sun, spin with the flowers
Spin with the world of the old, come alive
Shake with the words tickling at the marrow
The darkness comes fast, yet we hid from the light
What are we scared of anyway?
I ache to be born to learn
Of nature, words and questions without answers
Theres angels in the garden because of my pages
Because of my words, teachers dissaprove
I say I'm more part of you, than you will ever admit
phil-carcione@attbi.com
I liked this very much. This section especially.
I whisper because my voice has gone
It trickles like dust, glitters in gold
Sweeps in the morning sunshine
I think how lucky it is to be me
To have the warm amber glow
Like the setting of the sun
When you write your inner most feelings you can't go wrong. Either you come up with something wonderful or you get some good therapy. Keep it up.
~Phil~
love the style.. love the poem..