I sit in my own deep silence
Then realize it’s you I miss.
Love I have missed, with my heart before
And passed beside my darkened bliss.
I have to ask why it is
My heart beats with the strength it does.
Why must it go on and leave me staggering
For breath within the nights light satin.
I picture you within my dreams
Realizing I may not have you.
All too simple for something so complicated.
Must be a trap my fate has set for me.
So many have I passed through,
So many have I avoided.
Left behind in the cloud of mist
That I like to call home.
It surmounts my mind,
Engulfs my heart, leaves me drowning.
Lovely. Beauteous. I love that.
Staggering for breath then,
Just as your lungs are panging for air,
Take a breath, sweet breath of life.
This in a way is what I feel of you.
In a way what I hate.
Been through this once, twice too many.
Life is meant for mistakes.
Built for us to destroy.
Created so as we can un make it.
But you, I don’t want to unravel like string.
Keep you whole. No hearts broken.
Until I can feel again.