I know that you can’t have a rainbow
without the rain, first.
The sun washes away the gloom
leaving something beautiful behind.
That doesn’t mean I want to be the rain.
I know that something must break
before it can be fixed
but that doesn’t mean I want to break it.
I know that you have to bleed to see
that you’re alive
but that doesn’t mean I want to be
the one holding the knife.
And now I’m standing in the middle of a crime scene
I drop the knife
leaving my fingerprints on everything
especially on your heart.
I can’t stop the bleeding
no matter what I do
the blood keeps flowing.
I know that I will be the one to break you
I know that I will cut you.
I know the monster that lives inside of me.
The worst part is that I can’t change what will happen.
The scary thing is
part of me
wants to hurt you.