Shove it down Inside myself

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Need for love

If you love him let him go

shove it down inside myself

swallow my pride down my throat

I hurt so much I can't let it show

Move on with your day

act like you're okay

I can't do that..he was my life

I didn't know things could be gone overnight

he hurt me so much over stupid ass shit

why would he do it knowing it would lose

our whole being? Lose all of this?

to him i'm not good enough--i'm nothing

I rag on   I bitch   I fight   I say stupid shit

doing those things to him must be worth it

I gave him my all..my deep feelings, my true open heart, my life, our child

I'm not ever going to be worth shit to ANYONE

I don't want ANYONE

I don't want to be ALONE

I don't want to deal with this SHIT

I let him go

I shut my mouth, I bit my tongue and I hurt so bad



Because all along I just wished he would beg to stay

ask if i'm okay

tell me why he did what he did

tell me he loves me and fucked up things

But he won't because i'm not worth shit to him anyways.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

another depressing poem. write and weep..gotta love this kinda poetry!

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