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I can't understand why I always seem

to have doubts about myself

there is no excuse to treat someone

with insecurities that you have about yourself

I feel so up and down in each moment

I need reassurance

I need patience

I need an uplifting hand

Everything I have, yet I still feel doubt

I'm so pushy and demanding

I feel so desperate and hopeless

and the next minute, heartless and without feeling

all I ever do is push the one's I love away from me

all I ever do is manipulate and dramatize everything

all I ever do is try and it seems to not be worth it

I can't release this doubt

I can't let things be as they are

I can't forget and move on

I'm deceitful, jealous and impatient

and all along i'm the one that doesn't give a fuck about anything

and because of my own insecurites and doubts about myself

I will be led to a path of a love

that don't exist except in my own mind of punishment

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I have a lot of self-doubt that seems to make me look as though I am untrusting, something of which I need to work on

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last updated 11 October 2010 - 5:44pm
©12 August 2002 - 12:10pm — gwennalockafer
19 February 2003 - 3:56am — Robin (not verified)
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i think youre a step closer to working on your doubt. lately when weve talk u sound a little more happier (besides some things weve talked about!) things will work out 4 u guys. gotta give it time!! miracles dont happen overnite ya know!

21 August 2002 - 4:24am — Matt Handlos (not verified)
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i think there comes a point in time when everyone pushes away the ones they love, even if they dont mean to. you cant really help it, it just happens when youre around someone too long, your frustration goes onto them. "take your hatred out on me" it just works like that, all you can do is try and work past it, and hope things will turn out for the best.