You Were There. Until Now.
On my first birthday
you were there
the first time I opened my eyes
you were there
And most every 'first' of everything since that day
you were there
from my first breath to my first step,
from my first word (first of many)
to my first bite of food (again first of many)
you were there
Every birthday morning the phone would ring
early
you were there
Every birthday since that first one
you were there
Some were met with laughter others with tears
but every single birthday
you were there
until now
Not once did I consider that there would come a birthday
or any day
that you wouldn't be there
until now
Never did I imagine the emptyness I would feel
the loneliness, and yes at times despair
of you not being there
until now
Today was the first time, the first 'first' that you didn't share
Today was the first time that the early morning call didn't come
you were not there.
The first birthday I had to spend without you Mama.
I will not be able to share another first with you until my first day in Heaven.
That day I know as I look in the face of My Lord,
I will look to His side and there standing next to Him
you.
You will be there.