A cup of thoughts
Left out under the redundant shine
Of the sun.
Evaporated
Into the heavens
As one long breath:
Exhaled for no other reason
Than to inch me
Closer to my prescripted Death.
I perish by the clock.
Watching the minute hand
Tick, tock.
And re-examine the seconds
That fly by
In an attempt
To snatch them
From the sky high
Where they soar
And employ a different shade of actions
Upon them.
But I'm dead weight.
Can see the glass door ahead
Yet...
Been standing on the same tile
For a bitter while.
Fears of stepping
On fresh cracks
Send chills up my fucking back.
And so I'll hold still
For a little longer
Hoping an angel's voice will descend
And make me stronger -
Awaken the stranger lodged deep
Within me...
Before I bend
And break
And choke
On the same saliva and smoke -
Clouding up my pupils
Since the day
My soul was invoked
Into the stream of Eternity.
Now my doubts
Will flow...
I regret to tell you,
I fear
I can never be sincere
Again...
That I can never veer into
The flames of beauty and pain
That once had scented my soul
With a burning aroma --
A whiff of cooking up
The boiling of my basic personas.
But I swear
By Holy Hell
And requiem bells
That I will try and fight...
I want to bleed tonight.
Erase and clean what I have seen
And drip anew
The crimson metaphors
That spew upon your angel carpet --
Leaving stains of the refrains
I wish to shatter,
Across your apartment...
there are no words...