"Perfection is a spectrum
I will never know"
Come clear and precise
Make known every vice
A cleansing device... this sacrifice.
My mask of illusion
Brings only confusion
So let me bring forth my mental pollution.
I have seen a soul in need
And turned away...
No, my conscience did not feed
On guilt or sway...
I have looked into a loving eye
And lied...
I have pushed away a good friend
Whilst they cried...
I have wished hatred and death
On half the world...
I have given icy stares
To a little girl...
I have felt the need for envy
Over all...
Just to feed my sense of purpose
Red and raw...
I have given in to
Superficial love...
Pushing forth the known disaster
With resolve...
I am hedonistic
Telling you my sins...
Just for pity and so I could say
'I win.'
I have hidden truths that could
Have helped great deals...
Just because I like my
Little thoughts concealed...
I have thought of losing faith
Over a dollar...
And I've strangled my neighbor
Over his collar...
I have argued thoughts that I know
Are unsound...
Just to prove you wrong
And delight in your frown...
I have mastered ways to
Make you suffer so...
Just to push you down
So I can feel I grow...
I'm at best, manipulative
And insecure...
And I dirty all your names
To look more pure...
But I'm only just a wasteland
Of a lie...
And I'm so... so.... oh my god I'm so... sorry
If I've made you cry.
Yes I'm sinning while I'm grinning
As you fall...
Oh you'd jail me if only
I'd broken laws...
But what I have done leaves no room
For courts or cells...
But a twisted and self-mastered
Inner hell...
A selfish fool, I welcome
All my fates...
Yet hold on to this sickness
That's innate...
Sing suffering please
For I never will seize
Hold of my disease...
I wish I can bleed you
And say that I need you
Instead of deceive you...
"At times when I could cleanse my heart
I'd rather lay a fart."
Well, well, well. Perhaps one of the most powerful pieces i have come across so far. Your intelligence and wit truly shine through this one. Nicely done!