I tried to kill myself today
I tried to kill the pain..
I lied there dying on the floor..
Then I heard someone screaming for me to come out the door.
I took the pills, tried to overdose...
That was the path that I chose...
Freezing, shaking, bleeding, praying...
I saw someone spinning but couldnt hear what they were saying
I saw a shiny blade
I had to release it all...
Bleed for every mistake I had ever made...
and if that did not kill me, I had another plan to end this life on demand...
I would drown in an overflowing pool of hot water, blood and hate...
I would say goodbye and that would be my fate
I would end this life of continuous sorrow
I would say goodbye to tomorrow
If that still did not work
I would take a gun and end all the hurt
Just one bullet through the head...
WIthin a few moments I would be dead...
Many many days, this contemplation came...