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I am so scared and at the same time I so confused

The fear is a heavy burden that leaves me bruised

I hold the fear deep down inside

But my knowledge of its reasoning has dimmed out and died



Once I was afraid of letting my heart out on the line

Did not want it to get broken another time

I was scared to let love get too close for fear that the next day it would not be there

So I hid behind my addictions just to push all those that cared away



Then when love walked in vowing nothing would make it stray

I promised myself that everything would turn out okay

But still I feared deep inside that I had some reason to hide, if I moved too fast the love would have burned out and died

and yet again unwillingly i pushed loved away and it walked out the door after vowing to stay



So yet again I was so very scared

and to be so alonoe I was not prepared

Inside I felt a lot of hurt

I felt like the worst mistake, like a big pile of dirt



I was so sick and tired of the pain, ready to end my life

In my hand I tightly clenched the knife

I wondered if I were to live there was anything I could gain

All I had been dealt since that moment has been love and pain



I hid behind my scars this time

Knowing that I would never again be fine

I was standing on the fine line between life and death

Unsure if I had in me one last breath



Love came around again and asked for my heart

I replied only if you are for real and wont rip it apart

He made me that promise and still holds true to his word

But now I fear that I will still get hurt



My heart is still trying to mend

It takes a lot of time but I am able to believe this love, he is my best friend

Maybe I am really scared of myself

Scared that I will mess up and find my heart put on the back of a shelf



However everybody tells me that he is my soulmate

That he is not going anywhere because this is fate

I just hope to find out they are right

and I hope that it is not too late