I push everyone away because I fear
I keep silent because everybody does not hear
I close my eyes because I do not want to shed a tear
I cannot keep pretending; I just want you near
and you still hold this weary heart
Even though we are thousands of miles apart
I cannot take this pain, consuming it constantly is not so smart
Sometimes I wonder why we invested in this from the start
We made all these plans, dreams and promises we could never keep
and when thoughts of you kept me from being able to sleep
Was when I knew I was in way too deep
We had to end our flame when the downhill fall was way too steep
and the days so slowly go by
I give in and cry
I am tired of hiding behind this smile, it is such a lie
I cannot believe we said goodbye
I cannot survive this without you
But we had to end, we had to be through
I only know one thing to be true
and that is without you I am blue