I wish the time would go by faster
Here I sit waiting for disaster
A few more months till I am with my master
Till I am truly home with the one I love
I wish the days would sail be quicker
I wish more time would pass me by
I keep on wishing it were December
So to this misery I could say goodbye
Tainted and tattered fall my tears
Shaking cold to the bone through all of my fears
Wondering if in the end
Will you still love me
I wonder constantly what it is that you see
When you look into my eyes
Do you see the disguise that I hide behind
Do you see all the tears that I have let fall
Do you see my strength
from the times I could have given up
But kept holding on
Do you see all the self inflicted scars
From all the nights I almost took the pain too far
I wonder what it is that you see
I am nothing great
I am not that special
Yet you tell me that I am your only
I want to be there with you
Not only to be held in your arms
But to be proved that all of this is real