We spent our time talking,
but still we haven't met,
we fell in love,
i can't forget
I saw his picture,
his smile so bright,
he helped me get through my horrendous nights,
but,
one night he didn't get online,
and he never did call,
i waited all through the summer,
even through the fall,
then the month i planned to come see him,
i still came to see him, i even brought a friend,
no talking or calls since that last night in june,
i was scared out of my mind with fright,
we got to his house and the scene became so clear,
next thing i knew i was screaming out in fear,
"hes been gone since june, i am sorry to say,
he took his own life on that horrible day,"
those were the words i heard his family say,
i said 'thank you' and walked the other way,
no words were said for the next few minutes,
then a tear started to fall,
the one i loved, whom i missed so much was gone,
and there was nothing that i could do,
my friend took my hand and brought me close,
hugged me tight, just let me be,
i just sat there so shocked,
no contact from him for six months,
how couldn't i figure it out?
I was miserable, living a life of hell,
now there was no more reason to live for,
i asked my friend to just end it,
i told her, "here is the gun,
point it at me and pull the trigger,"
Of course she refused and told me to stay,
i told her that i couldnt,
ending my own life was the only way,
she told me, "fine, do as you please, just let me go, i can't bear to see,"
she walked away,
while i held the gun in my hand,
and then i put it to my head and pulled the trigger,
second by second i fell to my death,
i cried a tear,
and then i breathed my final breath
That is sad....
I like it though