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Sick of burying all the guilt inside

Ashamed of all the secrets I must hide

The tears and fears of all the pain

The scars through all the years caused in vain



Effortless and giving up

Wondering how can I go on

I am only perfect in weakness

and beautifully broken

Tainted and tattered shining through my eyes

Pain and all that is killing me is hidden by a painted on disguise



Scars go uncared for and unnoticed

They go untouched for days

Pretending to myself and to the world that I am okay

Maybe if I stay away from the harm then eventually I will



A week without my addiction and I am too weak

I give in, cannot take it, cannot shake it

A brand new set of scars to hide and cover

Another night unbearable, wishing the misery to all be over



Pile on top of that a whole bunch of guilt

Hide the pain with smiles, jokes and laughter

and stay away from the scars



It is a dangerous cycle that never ends

The pattern continues

Not sure where it begins

Trying to make it stop but I am useless



I am worthless and so undeserving

Cannot ask for help

I would rather die

Than wish for another soul to care



Just say that it is true,

that all thats left of me is an ugly shadow



Then I will say my goodbyes

and then I will pull the trigger