watching something die is never an easy thing.
watching someone you love and care about;that's even worse.
knowing you could've done something to prevent it and knowing you might've [ADDED] to the pain just makes it worse.
like watching a black rose DIE.
slowly wilting and withering away.
losing more and more everyday.
you become so useless because you can't help at all and you can only watch them
//suffer// and feel yoursel cry.