Sitting on a train and getting an erection while reading Anais Nin. She always was a better eroticist than Henry. There is no chance of getting laid tonight. I could go home and pound a few beers but I don’t even feel motivated to do that. It’s the safer bet and I do need some sort of release. I’m thinking of a girl I knew in high school—but I haven’t seen her since. I try to imagine the woman she has grown up to be. I still her as she was in high school. That would be patently illegal now. It may be time to put Anais away for the remainder of the train ride. There’s also a book by William F Buckley Jr. in my backpack. Surely that would help put out the fire.
Reading erotic
and feeling passion rising
worried about set
can’t go to prison for lust
turn back to more flaccid thought
I applaud your courage in
I applaud your courage in writing about this.
J-9th94
just a part of life
just a part of life