I’ll be glad to get to bed tonight but time is moving rather slowly. I guess I shouldn’t feel so tired but I do. I’m thinking about a girl I don’t know. She’s been burned onto my mind for some strange reason. I could say lust but that’s true for a lot of girls and they don’t linger on my mind like having something really special.
It's really an unusual fantasy play for me to be involved with. I should be partying on and meeting some new girls or just jamming out the tunes. I shouldn’t feel groggy over someone that I don’t even know. I guess it’s just a bunch silly idealism that I’ve let grow on my mind.
I can look at posters and muster up a real hot dream. There it goes again and I can even get really sophisticated, too. I let my mind drift through a few thoughts. A dream is all it is and all it will ever be. I know that but it’s still fun to have a fantasy girl who doesn’t make mistakes or ask stupid questions or complain about everything you do.
That’s really an important function. I guess it’s a healthy practice that I’ll easily be able to transcend. I know that another ideal will soon come along and then I’ll wonder what I ever saw in the current fantasy girl.