one of the problems
with being too easy going
at work
is that you often
get used and abused
you face
an inordinate number
of shit jobs
the whiners and bitchers
always get their way
which is the exact opposite
of how it should be
so I’ll find myself
being bounced
all over the place
from task to task
and back and forth
my head starts spinning
and I can’t get
into a roll
and knock the work out
some circles are cool—
drum circles;
a circle of friends’
circles around a campfire
going around
in a circle at work
isn’t really much fun
and doesn’t
accomplish a thing
I wonder
should a person
that’s had as many substances
pass thru their bloodstreams
as me be used like a yo-yo
my emotional stability
considered
and flashbacks possible
it seems a volatile mix
the dizziness reminds me
of nitrous oxide at first
but when it doesn’t wear off
I begin to enter
into panic mode
I pray at night
and thank god
I don’t own a gun
Things might not
end so well if I did