I wanted to be with you
I wanted to hold you
as you told me what he did to you.
I wanted to tell you
that it will be okay.
I wanted to help you
get over him and show you
that all guys are not like that.
I wanted to tell you for
a long time but I overheard you
was dating someone already.
I wanted to hold you and
let you have someone to
cry on when you need someone.
I finally told you how I felt inside,
I felt like maybe
I should have not after all.
I starting to think
that was a mistake when you
around and walk away,
I felt like my heart falling
as it hits the floor and
smash into pieces.
I wanted to be the
one that you would fall for but now
I am thinking that is not going to happen.
I wanted to look into your pretty blue eyes
as I ran my fingers through your beautiful blonde hair.
I wanted to be you but more important
I just want you to be happy even if it is not with me.
I wanted to hold you but for now,
it will an empty space instead.
I wanted to be there for you by anyway I could be.
I want to tell that you are very pretty.
I wanted to tell you how I feel but, I do not know how to now.
I want to open your heart to love once again
if I could just take the pain so you will not hurt again.
I still wanted to hold you to help take the pain away.
I thinking I am falling for you but I just
stand in the background for now.
I want to say I love you but,
those three words might be unspoken forever.
I do not want to do but,
I might end up broken again.
I want to believe that one day we could be together when you get over him but,
I am doubting that now.
I guess I might have to walk away
from this and let it die like the last time.
This is end of the poem but
could it also the end of this feeling for you.
-Gene Conner
June 15, 2009