in you i saw a fit for me,
and i wonder
if you too felt something with me
but for whatever reason
was hesitant to let those feelings free...
...i am everything i said
and no lie was spoken when
you said between you and me
was trust and honesty.
at least through my eyes,
from my perspective,
as naive as it may have seemed.
i go through waves and surf
the emotions of suppression;
remembering you and forgetting you,
the love, the joy, the depression.
without your physical presence,
somehow i feel you're present,
strong and gentle fingers touching
me and driving me mad.
amidst the beauty, i want to
throw you into a fire,
burn every memory of you
i ever had.
or not...
...i just miss you
and frustration drives me mad.
you'll never see me say this
until i know for sure
that your mind is tainted
also with the memory of me
with similar maddening intensity.
when i know without a doubt
that my ghost haunts you too
and makes you, like me, want to shout
and drives your mindframe as insane,
then maybe i will let my emotions out.
maybe i'll open my arms wide
and receive you home
after this long divide...
...cause what i thought was gone
is always here with me... this
craziness, these emotions, so strong,
may be the end for you and me.