The sound of my heart
like the beat of the drums,
so loud and deafening
when you cloud my mind.
Need no stethescope,
nor hand to check,
I have all I need to know that I'm alive.
When my chest erupts and softens,
closes in and then sighs in relief.
When it feels like a thousand hummingbirds
have replaced my heart, I know I'm alive.
Somehow with all my soul, I'm left tense
and clouded, away from my sense.
The heart stings, holding my breath,
press my lips back and let pain descend,
then too I know, that I'm alive.
Kept awake by fifty fifty,
no words can change my life.
Had our days spent been face to face
there be less worries and sad days to face.
To fifty fifty, all of the same coin,
and so to fifty fifty
I must make a choice.