I exhale and know they linger.
As I beg them to save me,
I know inside that I am already damned,
and fall into sleep.
My dreams become my reality
and my silent prayers are ignored once again
by nonchalant juries of iron-winged angels.
I know they laugh still,
and my heart breaks a bit more than it already was.
I'm sure now that I would be as comfortable
with that change as I am with this current life.
So much for myths and fairy tales,
they gave up on me long ago.
Your disillusion with religion is portrayed very skillfully in this poem. I often ask to saved 1000 x 1000 and yet I still wallow in misery.