Before me, the blank wall mimics my character.
Somewhere deep, I realize I have outgrown myself and now must become someone else.
I see wisdom from those younger than myself, and find their worldliness awe inducing.
I wonder, 'Was I like this?'
No.
I was false and smiling, eager to please in ways I hadn't learnt.
Playing the games those around me played, and I hadn't learned the rules.
I still don't.
And yet, I sigh and lean back,
content to see my children grow and learn,
knowing they will make the same mistakes.
I willingly throw my lambs to the wolves,
and I never bat an eyelash.
Because I am beyond shock and awe now.
I have the emotional spectrum of a plaster wall.
Plastered
Can't imagine feeling empty longterm...death leaves me stripped, that's about it. Everything else, (not the horrors that can and might yet happen) I have munitions and barricades well defended to repel. So do you, just hid or exiled~~~~~~Lady A