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me against myself (remade)
My inner voice won't shut the fuck up. I've bashed my head but he won't give up. I get the pain and he laughs it up. Feeling pathetic like I've finally had enough. He's fucking crazy had me thinking im tough. Till I was alone when he finally cleared the dust. Saw blood on the walls from those I thought I could trust. Feeling broke down covered in rust.
( You fucking idiot go hit yourself again. You're a lame fucking loser and I'll never get out this head. I'll keep pointing that finger till you jump off that ledge. But I know you won't so you're stuck with me till the end. Made you think you can make it just to fuck with your head. Laughing historically when I broke you instead. I got the power you only pretend. Think you control the words that you've said. I was behind all the blood that you shed felt without a friend begging to forget.)
My worst enemy has always been my mind. I know what I need to do but my head won't let me try. Get a false sense of hope then finding out it's a lie. Feeling emotionless but still I cry. Can't understand it I just ask why. A happy kid definitely a little shy. Needing a partner them convinced I don't deserve a wife. Trapped in a box a lone in this life.
( Because I am the one that's locked inside. Me being in here means I never need to hide. Even you can't see me when I keep you up at night. It's never been yours its mine, mine, MINE! Nowhere to go so no plans tonight. And you became my mission I'll fuck up a happy thought every damn time. Consider yourself lucky I don't fuck with your sight. Maybe even cause suffering the night I let you die.)
That voice inside is corrupt and unkind. My heart wants good with the ability to love life. Thought i had to do it alone seeing it as pride. Then came failure with everything I've tried. So bleed on these pages just another way he makes me wine. But one wrong move....
BOOM.....
Hidden landmine.....
