How could someone feel so god damn pathetic. Fucked in the head on my purpose because i just dont get it. All my fucked up thoughts I just let in. Break me from the inside with no will to fight. Eyes shut closed so I can't see any light. Choices I make I once thought to be right. Yeah welcome to my fucked up life. Wishing and praying to find help tonight. I had the perfect girl that I loved to hold so tight. But she slipped away a mistake i relive every fucking night.