my head is spinning
as my thoughts spiral out of control
fear pours itself upon my heart
like a cold shower on a hot summer day
pain has buried itself so deep within me
that it is suffocating me and I can not breathe
I am crying tears of blood in sorrow
and once again I wonder how I got here
my heart is sinking and drowning in my tears
and I can't tell what the voices are saying
and what I am actually thinking
everything in my head is so blurry
like thick fog I can't see where I am going
I have been pierced with darkness
and rejected by the sunlight
so I continue walking in the dark
scared of what lies ahead
and once again I wonder where I am going
and why I have to hurt so much
and then I remember that within the darkness
Christ walks beside me
guiding me and holding my hand
and that he is stronger than all the hurt I feel
and that every time I was weak
he was there and was strong for me
and once again I wonder why he loves me
so much so that he suffered and died for me