drown out my pain for I don’t want to feel it anymore
cause it makes me feel like I have nothing to live for
bury my tears for this world is not big enough to catch them all
only you are big enough to catch them so with you I let them fall
the agony stings my heart like a honey bee stings over and over again
and I sit and wonder if this pain I feel will ever come to an end
cause in the darkness I keep trying to find your light
and in the shadows I try to feel you hold me tight
but how can I call you God
how can I call you my savior
how can I call you Lord
how can I say you’re my father
and how can I worship
how can I praise
how can I love you
every single day
when there is this pain inside
and I drown in the tears I’ve cried
so won’t you take my breath away
like a sunset in the sky
so many times I came to worship your name
but now I come to you and it’s just not the same
and so many times I have praised you with all I am and more
but now here I am scrunched up in a ball crying on the floor
it just hurts so much that I don’t know what to do or say
I have never felt such pain before; I’ve never been this way
so won’t you take away this abyss black hole of emptiness
and fill it instead with the comfort of your presence
so that I can call you God
and I can say you’re my savior
so that I can call you Lord
and I can say your my father
so that I can worship
and I can praise
so that I can love you
every single day
God, please take my breath away
freeze away my doubt
turn me inside out
cause I am not myself
God, I need your help
please come and save my soul
cause although I love you I am not whole
please come before breathing becomes meaningless
come show me that with you I am truly blessed
cause you are my God
and you are my savior
you are my Lord
and you are my father
and I will worship
and I will praise
and I will love you
every single day
I will lift you high
cause like a sunset in the sky
you have taken my breath away
I am sure we all feel this way for some reason beyond us only He knows that drives us to do stuff to make it stop or get past it or through it and this poems seems to do it...Pam